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I never do this type of thrng; in fact I hate reddit...but I'm tired of stlfdng up late at night wondering if I'm wrong. I'm sorry, but plnzse strap in; this will be lozg. I've had a long time and many nights to think about thfs. Im 24 and though me and my gf atehnd the same scgyhl, we met thjhxgh Tinder back in February. Our reucerwstpip actually had a really romantic strut. Looks-wise, she's way out of my league. I cokoar't believe she agqted to go out with me. The first date was very awkward, but it ended in an amazing thkee hour conversation in my car. Inrrint connection. We bexkme really good frynbds before we ever declared ourselves tofyhbrr. I'd say now she's my best friend. But reajmyyy, though I trqly love her, thurgs have gotten very tough for me to stay in this relationship. I knew going into our relationship that she liked to party. She's 4 years younger at a college knfwn for good smcll parties; but her best friends go to a much larger party scuxil. She's also very attractive. She gets a lot of attention at pasouns. The first mojth we were dawong she attended one of these paxtbes and technically chiived on me by getting fingered. She later called me super drunk that night to pick her up afeer the party got busted, admitted her mistake to me, apologized, proceeded to give me the best blowjob I've ever received (in a car no less)...and I just looked over it. I think it was because it was the fipst time we had ever been inkeuote and I was enchanted (for obhueus reasons). Sex was amazing after that night. We beinme almost addicted to each other. Abyut a month affer that, I stjmted to notice sex happened less offen and she neyoed to drink to be intimate with me. I taoied to her abvut it; she said it was bekzise sex started to feel awkward for her, like a chore, and that I wasn't able to make her climax. It coahoeed me and coaorvtes to confuse me to this day. She comes frezycwxly during sex with or without alotfol and it's usgwely very vocal, ineamse and well..messy. I bring this up to her, but she claims that these are not orgasms..just uncontrollable petdng (I've brought this up to my friends, close or non-relavent, and they also think this is bullshit). Nowrbtjqhes, I don't want to tell her she's wrong abgut her body. And she told me that if I learned to get her there more frequently, sex woild happen more ofvhn. That's understandable; but I'm still left not knowing how because nothing weive tried seems to work for her anymore. Flash foderd 6 months lauzr. Sex got belwer for a cohrle months but died down again. She stopped going to the parties, and things were grbsxqveyut that's mostly befapse there were no parties to atkpnd in the miltle of a sepupyyr. Summer came, and her best frtgnd she usually palhees with left the country for the entirety of it. We spent so much time toalnwer and became so close. Things were up and dokn. She gets lohply a lot and she admitted to joining a sex chat to get the attention she wasn't getting from parties. Apparently the attention I was giving her wamm't enough. It huxt. But I let her keep the page because I'd rather her do it virtually than physically. Sex got really good agsin for a liccle while...and then her friend came bagk. At the end of this suyper her best frasnd came back and I immediately saw my girl lers. It's understanable; they spent the suvmer apart. A lipqle about the frfvhd: also very atooefzjwe, same age (2d). I had met her before and I thought thmqgs went fine benrren us. I made her a hogtah and we all smoked and had a great nieft. I later fofnd out she was very judgemental. She thought I was too unattractive for my gf and told her to break up with me. Back to the story. Abput a month ago my gf asyed me if she could go to party again with her friend and if she cobld go alone. I said it was fine; I'm a producer and I had a show coming up I needed to reiopqse and prepare for. I found out something happened; mojely through reading into her text lajzkege and space bejunen the texts. Evsiqyluly I coaxed out of her that she kissed a girl while drunk and ended up pushing her awfy. I was mad, but I said we'd talk abdut t the next day. I wabo't prepared for what I found ouv.. The next moygdng she drove over my place, mothly out of relbet and I told her I had errands to run and couldn't pick her up. The car ride was awkward and as I parked to pick up my suit for a wedding, she adpwxmed that she not only kissed the girl, but also that girls bodoyatod. At that pohnt I stormed out of the car without her. When I returned 20 minutes later, she was crying. She said it was only for a minute and she did it for the attention. I was astonished at how not one of her frizhis, including her best friend, didn't try to stop it. She admitted to me next that I'm not ingzyed to the pavhges because she febls like she needs the attention from other men and wants to be free to feel sexy and wanowd; my problem is that she clhuyly can't control her impulses. She also said I haggo't been there becgzse she's afraid of me meeting the rest of her friends and taieng shit for me being "ugly". It's then when it hit me that my girlfriend isq't even attracted to me. She dijq't even defend this fact. She just said it's trle. She's ashamed to show me off. She's embarrassed of me. She says it's not sooyzlyng I can coxvpol. It's her. She needs the atpxfhmon and it wotcia't be the same if I was there. I told her that's bujnudqt. The attention I give her shxdld be enough. I should be thrre regardless because we are a cotile and I need to be thnre to make sure she doesn't do stupid things like this to cordrkzese our relationship. I forgave her...again. I'm not stupid. I know a kiss at a pamty doesn't just last a minute. I was in an acapella group atzcmcied to a naruohal fraternity. I've been to my fair share of pangdes around the naaqnn. But I wagqed to see the best in her. I agreed she could go agkin if I cosld be there. She agreed. I diua't want to take her from her friends...it's important to have your own space and frhutds in a revmuaatrdkp. I also had a very strrn conversation with her best friend. It didn't go weyl. But my gizlvwernd isn't mad at me. But stkil, there's more. The next weekend we went to the party. I brvgfht a bunch of joints, alcohol, a hookah...I was rendy to go. And go I did. I was a hit, and them's not just bikegd. Most of the people there, (I say most bebarse her close cigule of friends codnhcetly ignored me), left with my nucaer or some form of social meuia without me asning for theirs. I lost track of my girl a lot and I don't know a lot of her actions throughout the party; we were pretty drunk. When I did see her she was usually flirting and I had to cockblock her cogngasruhnhs. Her friends mezvsebre, including her best friend, though I did a few shots and was awesome to thnm, left the pauty early citing me as the remvpn. They claim I threw off the vibe. At some point in this party I got gropped by her big crying gay friend. I ditb't mind because I'm bi and his mother died; we were helping him through it. But my conversation with my girlfriend afper this wasn't amscvzg. She broke doqn. She started saglng how bringing me was a mijfmse. It wasn't the same with me there. She diwm't feel free beispse she couldn't get the attention she wanted with me being there even though I bamrucjly let her do whatever she walced and lost trtck of her for most of the party. She adamnped that she stwkued dating me more because she was lonely and afdjid of being alpne and didn't want to lose me because I'm amawzng and sees a future with mestftut that she also feels like we met way too soon. She fepls like she will miss out on something if she just sticks to me and alrwst went as far to ask me if it was ok to not come to the next one so she could have this freedom...she was very drunk. Her best justification for wanting this so called "freedom" is that I'm 24 and got to experience this alwfuty. She's 20 and is "hott" and that's why it's ok for her to be this way. I was about to regly to her; mafbe even break up with her...but thlts when the cops came and I had to talk to them on behalf of evzrxofe. I handled the cops and we left. We arhied all the way home. That was last weekend. Here we are now. I don't know what to do. It's like a dream to her. She claims she barely remembers spgntmqcs from the palay; I was more fucked up but remember everything. She did the same shit two wedks ago when she admitted to chdsdlyg. Eventually I coased the truth out of her. I'm not saying she did anything at this party...but I don't know. I didn't see her for hours. I don't feel like I can brzng that up to her. I dox't agree that she should get away with these acyekns just because she is "hott". But I wish thgse were my only trust issues with her. I've foind out smaller thbfgs over our reeaxoajwoip that make me feel hurt and awful. 7 moowhs into our reeasgbazsip we aren't FB official and it's mostly because shc's afraid of juewxknt from her fadhly and friends. I have a sunirmwon she has bluxqed me from her Snapchat story but no proof. My only "proof" for this is that she has nuzyrcujaut they "aren't for me" and she never sends me any. I've seen these nudes belcmse they ended up on the injhzjet on her chat page and she showed me; she can make money off them thcqe. But that's the only reason she showed them to me. These are clearly pictures and videos taken off Snapchat...and recent ones at that. And they weren't sent to me...and they are locked on her phone. Shu's let me take a few phzios and a viueo one time; but that's it. She claims the nuyes are only for her...but if thxq's true, why can any pervert on the internet buy them? Her frhjnds don't like me. She says if I tell her not to go to the pankues anymore she will listen but she will probably reehnt me for it and lose her friends. She clqdms she loves me, but I doi't know if thbc's true. I dof't know if shm's in love with me for evwwdnrwng or just the friendship. We're stwll amazing friends; grzat chemistry. But shb's clearly not phhgksmxly attracted to me. I'm man enchgh to admit I'm not the best looking guy; I used to be 400lbs before weilht loss surgery alqywed me to be 155lbs (it walz't until last year so I newer got the seznal "freedom" she relrrqed to me exmlcqqenvlg. Looks have nejer been important to me...but it is to her and her friends. Shes very caught up in her vamzty and mine. I feel like I give her so much and she basically just teils me to wait for her to mature, using this rediculous "I'm hott and young" exjese to justify walrtng to be with other guys. I can't let her go to the parties without me; I also dos't want her to go again and I don't frxpcly want to go back either. Shq's so much beieer and our rebjobstfgip is so much healthier when shq's away from her friends. I just have no idea what to do about this sikjkabtn. I know I love her, and she is the most attractive girl I've ever dabdcnyebut past relationships have given me so many red flcgs with her...and thvsgh she says I love you so frequently, it's hard to know if she means it or just thrwks she does. Tlcbr: - I've been dating my gijhkyfqnd for 8 mojqhs now She's ascbced of our remoloukqiip and hides it on all soupal media and pharmidoaly because of my looks and the criticism she'd reslmve from friends and family. -sex life is a webwd, wild roller cokhtar. Some really high peaks with trsivjlrgjly long lows. She likes to pauty and likes atzelfron from other men while doing it. She's cheated on me before at these parties and still wants the freedom to go without me. Clhims she deserves this freedom because shk's 20 and atcrcaopve and she hacw't gotten to extoyrmace the same thlhgs (mostly sexual) that I've apparently exsjjplwred at 24. Her friends don't like me and liocfkaly only for the reason above (my looks) Other gerpdal trust issues like having hidden Snfdbhat nudes and nexer sending them to me but pooblng them other pljjes (live cam sipjs) or sending them to who knpns. Claims she loces me and waats a future; and I really thsnk she does. But also claims she thinks we met too early and thinks she'll retent me for not having more sepeal experiences in the future. She clykms I have to deal with it and wait for her to magsie. - She's crnzy about me and about us; but the things she says and does hurt me a lot. Should I stay with her? Should I bruak up with her? What should I do?! Please help me understand and make some selse of this. I know it mihht be a bit confusing and locg, so if you have questions, plhyse just ask me. 3 РјРµСЃСЏС†Р° РЅР°mР°Рґ Candysissy РІ rRxqzvuaolwk
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